College Relationships

Even though I'm not graduating, a lot of my friends are. It's crazy that we're already getting to the end. The end of the good times and the childhoods being wrapped up. We're adults now or at least trying to be. What makes me sad about my friends graduating is that I know that this will be like high school. Everyone was friends "for life" and still, we graduated, went to college and now I can pass people I went to high school with in the halls and we don't even glance at each other. I know that college has been different. I've been through the most difficult times in my life with these people. They are my FAMILY. Yet I know that when they toss their graduations caps in the air, and I'm watching something I was suppose to be a part of, everything is going to change. Even with Brennen. He's going to be at his big job all the time now. We won't have school or working at the rec center in common anymore. What's completely devastating about time is that you can never go backwards. Ever. Time is a linear thing with only one direction. 
Matthew turns 30 today, only proving that time is something that does not stop and memories become old, tattered, and faded. This is quite the depressing post but that's how I feel about change. And to be quite honest, I'm devastated to be losing this part of my  life. This little segment, this little piece is slowly just becoming another memory instead of the here and now.
So to all my friends that I haven't said this to because it's far too sad and I love you all far too much: I will miss you. You are a big part of my family in life and will forever be my Boulder Family. I will miss you like you wouldn't believe. I can't believe this has come to an end. I know that we'll only keep in touch through facebook and we're about to start our lives and are going to branch out in so many different directions, but don't forget the people that held your hair as you puked, that held your hand or gave you a hug when everything was falling apart, the people who took your clicker, the people who you called at 3 am to just hang out, the people who threw those awesome Hill parties, and the people that when you were actually growing up into an adult, grew up with you. I love you and I am so sorry to see our time has ended. With deepest love and deepest gratitude, Becca.

Finals are just around the corner...for me, literally. Finals are suppose to be next week but of course, my teachers have given me two this week: one tomorrow and one on Friday.  I'm not entirely sure how to study for the one tomorrow which is why I can be found here. Besides the fact that I'm not sure how or what to study for this exam, I've also been up since 3 am and my energy is wearing thin. My energy, patience, and brain are on the fritz. I can't do this much longer so it's a good time for finals. I feel sick to my stomach and completely lost.
There's something about this stress that is different then normal. My stomach hurts so bad and my focus is just everywhere else. I feel like I've given all that I have to give and that I'm trying to contribute more but I just can't find it within my soul to do so. I really need to do well on these finals. They will be the deciding factors between A's and B's and yet, I still have no more tricks up my sleeve and I have absolutely nothing left to give. Nothing. The bucket keeps going in to the well and there is no water. It makes no sense but it's a matter of getting the grades or not. This is rambling nonsense and I recognize the fact that my brain is just dumping out the excess. This is my last attempt at anything.

I just want to sleep.

From now on

I am apologize now if this blog doesn't turn out what you expect it to be. From here on out, my blog is for me. I am not writing to help anyone out with anything. I don't have great tips on how to be a mom and I don't have giveaways where you win great things. This is going to be put into something simple because I've found that when I build this blog up to be something others expect it to be, I don't blog at all because the pressure to make something as great as the other blogs I see out there is too great. If you want to continue reading my virtual diary, I am going to disclose some things so that there is no confusion and so that there is full disclosure.

I am a Christian but I am not perfect. I believe that my relationship with God is a personal one and if other people chose to judge me, they are sinning just as much as they are accusing me to be because they only one who can judge me is Him.

A part of those imperfections is that I drink with my friends, I swear when I'm angry, and I don't always act like the good little Christian girl.

I have a boyfriend and friends. I go to CU in Colorado. I am terrified of the future and I am a senior about to embark on the scariest transition of my life.

This will be the last time I address anyone in a post. (I will respond to comments and other forms of communication.) From now on, this is going to be my virtual diary and my space to be. Support is great and I love followers, I follow a lot of you myself but I need a space that is pressure free and doesn't feel like an assignment. So that's what this is going to be.

Work Out Playlist

I try to work out 5 days a week to Jillian Michaels' 3 month plan

Well, I have found that I am more motivated by music then I am by Jillian Michaels

I like Jillian Michaels but in her videos, she talks to the other people working out far too much for me to stay focused.

My solution: I put the tv on mute and I blast my own work out mix

I have been asked several times to send the mix to my friends or to make them one or whatever

SO

I thought I would share with you here 

I must warn you though: I do like these songs but these group of songs isn't my entire taste in music. Therefore, if you'd like to comment on how I only like this or that, remember that this is a work out mix.

Without further ado:

ONE: Trizzy Turnt Up by A-Trak

TWO: Feel So Close by Calvin Harris

THREE: Some Chords by Sam Adams

FOUR: Joleen by Robotic Pirate Monkey

FIVE: Daddy's Money by OnCue

SIX: Nothin for Nothin by Savoy

SEVEN: Flower by Moby

EIGHT: October by Broken Bells

NINE: Get That Ouh by Juan Magan

TEN: Like I Love You by R.I.O

ELEVEN: Levels by Avicii

TWELVE: Hangover by Taio Cruz

THIRTEEN: Turn This Club Around by R.I.O

FOURTEEN: Fade Into Darkness by Avicii

FIFTEEN: Houdini by Foster the People

SIXTEEN: Somebody That I Used to Know by Gotye

SEVENTEEN: Good Feeling by Flo Rida

EIGHTEEN: Move Like Jagger by Maroon 5

NINETEEN: This is How It Goes Down by Pink

TWENTY: Pumpkin Soup by Kate Nash

A few tips for making your own playlist:  

Chose music that really pumps you up. 

Be familiar with the work out you're going to do so that you can match the beat with the rhythm of your movements

Put it on shuffle. It keeps the playlist fresh for each work out

For your enjoyment this lovely Friday

First of all, I love Ellen DeGeneres.

Second of all, my favorite person to watch in an interview is Russell Brand. 

When Russell Brand is on the Ellen Show, oh man, it's a good day. 

One of my favorites, is when Russell meets Sophia Grace and Rosie:  

He is so great with them. He is one crazy dude but he is so good with them

From his most recent appearance on Ellen:

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE

I can't get enough of them

...back to studying :/

Happy Thursday!

Happy Halloween!

So there are other pictures out there but this is the only one I was able to track down. 

This is me and my friend Sarah. 

She's a kitty. I'm a flapper. 

Hope everyone had a safe and happy Halloween!

Well My Goodness, Have I Missed You!

I'm so sorry that I basically disappeared off the internet! 

BUT

It's a good point in my blog's life to tell you what you're getting into.

I love followers but my followers should know that I can't be consistent all the time. 

I'm going to try my very best to keep everything updated but last week, I had midterms and therefore no blogging allowed! 

When I say I'm a full time college student, it isn't just a gimmick to get you to follow me, it's so so boringly hopelessly true. 

Please have patience with me and stop in because I will post and those posts will be kick ass. 

So please, follow and join me on my journey through this institution we call college but in actuality is the real life Hunger Games. Well, in a way. 

I love you all. I hope you're all doing well. I can't wait to catch up on all the posts that await me. It'll be a welcomed break. 

But for now, hello! and know that it's never goodbye but see ya later 

Sending love, love, love your way.

Hello Lovely Bloggers!

I have been crazy busy this weekend, running all around Colorado doing various things so I haven't been in touch. Thus, tomorrow you will probably be seeing a lot of me. 

But for now, the Broncos vs Patriots game

I'm ready for some good football. 

Happy Sunday!

GO BRONCOS!!

Red Rocks Amphitheater (Colorado Love)

Thursday Link Ups!

It's ok...

-that after a really difficult 2 weeks in school, Brennen and I played hooky today

-that we just stayed in bed and then made breakfast. We slept or watched Big Bang Theory all day. Tonight, we're going to a movie :D

-that I got Brennen to buy a mirror for his room so I can do my make up

-that I am a little bummed that my blog isn't growing that much anymore but to still appreciate those who do

-that I get really behind in blogging

-that I probably watch way too much tv

-that I like to have my sound machine on rain and to have it running quite often just because it's calming to me

-to be super excited for my boyfriends birthday!! 

 

I'm thankful that when I'm sad or stressed out, Brennen is there for me. I'm really excited for his birthday this Saturday. I really hope that I can make it one of his best ever! I'm so thankful for him and I really hope he knows that. I also am really thankful for our relationship. He's the best boyfriend and my best friend. 

(I know this was very cheesy, I'm just very excited for his birthday!!)

Me&My TV

(The chronicles of what is probably an inappropriate relationship with me and Stevie, my tv)

Okay folks, here we go. 

One of my favorite things about fall is that tv is no longer in reruns

& I rejoice in that fact.

Not sure how many tv lovers are out there but you're lookin at one right now

One of my biggest reasons for loving tv is that it's mindless (except in Big Bang Theory where I actually do pick up a couple things haha) BUT since I just took a Biology test that I've been studying for for the last 4 days, I'm going to indulge in some good ol' tv

Thus, my second love: my dvr

Read on for my reviews (which there is some expertise to since I'm a senior year film student)

On the menu for tonight:

2 Broke Girls

How I Met Your Mother

Bones

Switched at Birth
New Girl

**NOTE: Spoilers Included**

Switched At Birth

First of all, Bay is such an unlikeable character. It seems to me that  everyone is trying hard to make it work and she isn't grateful at all. I understand that she think that her art deserves to be wherever she put it but it's time to be a little bit of an adult. She can't expect her dad to want graffiti on his place of business. Also, not claiming she's a Kennish? How hurtful to her family! I'm not really sure how I feel about the Bay and Emmett situation except that he seemed to have made her a better person, a more respectful person. The situation with Daphne and Angelo is hard because I totally understand where she's coming from, he's just trying so hard. But that's life and when you walk out on someone, they're bound to not forgive you. Regarding Regina, she's a badass. She always cuts in and does what she thinks is right. Her talking to Simone is a really interesting sub plot to the story.  What I like about Bay and John 's  relationship is that it's real. This happens between girls and their fathers. In this episode he says "I feel like I don't know you anymore". Crushing thing to hear, and these things get said. It's a sad part of life. Something that I really like about ABC Family shows is that it's honest about real life. Sometimes it's cheesy but it's real about family. 

How I Met Your Mother *Premiere*!!!

I am so excited for this premiere!! AHHH!! Can't believe how long I've waited for this moment! 

On to my review: 

Classic comedy that I love

It's great to see a premiere that keeps the classic humor alive. It's hard to wait for the same show you love all season to come back and it be changed but of course, Barney was boss, not to mention my favorite character. 

How amazingly beautiful. All I have to say is wow, wow, wow. My favorite shot is where the camera pans Ted's future wife and then where her face is, her yellow umbrella shows. 

This premiere was beautiful, perfect, and flawless. Can not wait for the rest of the season. I am reminded as to why this is one of my favorite tv shows of all time. (5 STARS)

2 Broke Girls *Premiere*

 

Same old humor. I think that some of the story lines are played out but whatevs. Still a good mindless television show. I do think that maybe they should do some stuff with the cupcake business instead of just constantly talking about it. And I didn't really understand Max's attracting/flirting thing with Caroline's dad. I'm hoping the rest of the season is a step up from the premiere.

New Girl *Premiere* & s02/ep02

Premiere Same good humor. It was nice to see some sadness in Jess. I know that's a weird thing to say but she is always so quirky and bubbly (which is a good thing) but it was good to see some more depth to the character. 
s02/ep02 Jess seemed a little bit more tame when she was talking to the guy in the bar. Usually, they show her being really out there and quirky but she seemed more tame with her conversation (not her climbing on her lap haha). I wonder if their feedback said that she needed to be a little bit more relatable or something but I think everyone can relate to her weirdness ha. "He wants to cook for me. Is there a hot way to say I don't feel sexy after I eat a lot of cheese?" hahahaha love it. 

Alright kids, question for you:

Are you having problems with pinterest?

I started getting e-mails about people repinning something I pinned. 

When I opened the e-mail, I was confused because I had never seen the pin before in my life. 

It appeared to be a graph of jobs in America or something

I go on to my account and suddenly there are three new boards titled:

Business

Investments

I love Money

 Strange because I've never made those boards and they all had that same picture

It said I had pinned it 10 hours ago

But I haven't been on my computer all weekend

Has this been happening to anyone else?

Ugh..the Life of a College Kid

I haven't been able to post much. (Like at all)

And that's sad :(

Unfortunately for me, I have a HUGE test and a quiz today

A paper due next week

A Biology test on Monday

A Greek Mythology test on Wednesday

Needless to say, I'm freaking out a bit. 

If they could inject coffee straight in to my veins, I would oblige. 

I've felt so out of whack, not being able to do my usual routines

and part of my routine is connecting with you guys!

Can't wait until next week is over so I can:

-rejoice (for like a week and then I'm sure more stuff will be due)

-relax (it'll be needed)

& best of all...

-CELEBRATE BRENNEN'S BIRTHDAY!!

Until then, if you don't hear from me, it's because I'm reading all sorts of nonsense, trying to figure out how to cram it into my brain, and drinking an ocean's worth of coffee. 

Midterms are gonna kill me

Premiere: Bones

**Spoilers**

Bones premiered last night (I was so excited!)

We ended last season with Bones having to go into hiding

I liked the first episode of this season, starting off showing Bones with her baby as a blonde

Everything gets wrapped up quickly

Blah, blah, blah

Anyway, I thought that it was good. It was just kind of odd to me that everything got wrapped up really quickly

It was a big deal that she went into hiding and all of a sudden it's just all "Three Months Later"

It's kind of like they just changed their minds and wrapped it all up in the first episode

Needless to say, it looks like Bones will return back to the same story lines of them solving crime, which is fine

Just kind of odd to me

Still a good premiere and can't wait for the rest of the season

Also, so glad they had her dye her hair back

Bones as a blonde just doesn't work haha

Good Morning!!!

A lot of my friends (IRL) have asked me what my morning routine is because they feel like I always seem prepared and refreshed in the morning. If you've been a college kid, you know how challenging being refreshed and prepared everyday really is. So, I've told them and I thought I'd share with you! 

My secret: 

It's simple really. I make sure that I actually have a morning. I schedule my classes so that I don't have a  class before 12:30 pm. Sometimes my classes go later (that's mostly due to the fact that some reason the film department schedules our classes later in the day) but I like having a morning and then class in the afternoon and homework and relaxing at night.

My routine:

8:15 am

Wake up

8:30 am

I usually take Brennen to school/work in the mornings because he usually picks me up from school

8:45 am

Make coffee

Wash face

9:00 am

Watch Live with Kelly and Michael

Blog

Any homework that I need to finish before class

Pick up anything in room that needs to be
Check e-mail and facebook

10:00 am

Make bed

Get school bag ready

10:10 am

Begin work out

10:40 am

Make breakfast and eat it YUM!

11:00 am

Shower and get ready

11:30 am

Read outside

From then on out, I finish cleaning or finish homework. Everything isn't minute to minute, this is just a rough estimate of when everything gets done. I leave for class at 1:30 pm on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays to get to class at 1:55 (starts at 2)

Then I have class until 4!

TADA! My not so complicated but busy mornings laid out!

Happy Monday!

Unfortunately, no pictures of this weekend :/

BUT! 

I had a pretty good weekend.

Brennen and I headed down to Monument so he could meet my grandparents and I could hang out with them.

Everything went really well. 

On Saturday, we went garage sale-ing. (One of my grandparents faves)

I got three cameras at an estate sale for 30 bucks and two of them are vintage! 

I'll take a picture of them and post it because they are so unique and charming!

I got sick while at home and it was nice to be home because I actually had my mom around for once instead of being all adult and taking care of myself!

What did you do this weekend?

1) When you're feeling down, what do you do to pick yourself up?

I watch an episode of Friends or a Disney movie.

Then I ask Brennen for a BIG hug!

2)  If you had to live in a different time period which would you prefer?

Can I chose the future? 

I'm really interested to see how technology develops and how the world changes. 

3)  What is the most creative Halloween costume you've ever worn?

I've always wanted to be something super creative but in the end, I procrastinate to the point where it's something easy like hippie, indian, or gypsy. Last year though, I was Robin from Batman and Robin. 

See:

4)  Five weird things about you we wouldn't know without being told?

This is a hard one. I feel like someone could figure everything out through observation. I'll just say those.

-I eat my red and green skittles last

-I watch a lot of reruns (Friends, Big Bang Theory, Gilmore Girls, What I Like About You, Sex and the City...)

-I know every single line to every single episode of Friends

-I eat vanilla icecream when I don't feel well...even though I'm lactose intolerant

-I eat miracle whip on all my burgers and I make special sauce for everything else with miracle whip and ketchup

5)  What would you tell your 16-year-old self?

Don't listen to other people. Be the wise person you know you are and really think about your decisions before you make them.

Happy Wednesday! 

Let's be friends :D

Today, I am such a sicky

I feel okay I guess...except for the fact that I can't breathe.

I have a test today AND today is my longest day of the week.

Not feeling good. Not happy.

Anyway, I'm watching Live with Kelly and Michael from my DEATHBED! 

I was wondering what you guys think about the choice for Michael as the new cohost...

Any thoughts?

Mine are: I think they're good together but I don't think he brings an awful lot to the table. Neil Patrick Harris was a lot better with her (obviously he can't do it) but I was hoping the person who did get the job was just as good. I like Michael but as a permanent cohost, I'm not completely won over yet.

Now, time for some lavender tea and staying in bed until the absolute last minute

Ugh

Hope you're having a better Tuesday then me!